Wow. What a week! Miracles all around us!
First off C got BAPTIZED!!!! It was certainly the crazy process to get her there, to work out everything with her and her family, and the ward. But it did happen and that’s all that matters. It was a beautiful baptism. Her whole family were there which is always nice to see. I love the wonderful spirit that is always there. I felt such a strong love for her and I’m so grateful that the Lord blessed me to be able to witness her baptism.
Another miracle happened in us being able to attend the temple! I haven’t been to the temple for such a long time, and it felt like home. I love that immediately when you walk in the spirit is there. I really wanted while I was in there to talk to Heavenly Father. I wanted to know what His will was for me, and what I could do more to show him my dedication and consecration. It was really amazing to me as we sat in the session how all these little things stuck out to me, things that I normally would look over. I had been thinking over the past year and a half how many different times I’ve gone to the temple, and how every time I go new things stick out to me. I have learned so much in attending the temple and I know that it is the Lord’s house.
Throughout my mission I have always tried to be obedient and to consecrate myself to the work of the Lord. I wanted to be a missionary who served with all my heart, might, mind and strength. While I’ve been in the field I have definitely seen times when that has occurred, when I had given all that I could. But it hadn’t been the whole time. And one of the things I wanted to understand better, while I was in the temple, was how I could deepen my level of consecration. And the answer that I received was that I already knew how. I’ve been taught my whole mission to be obedient to live the commandments/mission rules, to follow the spirit and to follow at my best the counsel of my mission president and I would have peace knowing I was doing the right thing. It felt such a strong spirit in that moment. I felt that for the last while on my mission I will do nothing but be consecrated, to serve the Lord with my heart, not just my head, to give my life to these people and to my Heavenly Father. I feel that before I started my mission and even into my service, I was being selfish. I was thinking about myself and what my mission had for me, but I have come to realize that a true consecrated missionary doesn’t ask what do I get from it, but what can I give!
The Lord has taught me how to be what He wants me to be, and as long as I continue to do that all will be well. But it doesn’t end there, after we are taught, we apply and then we keep going. We keep learning, we keep progressing. We never stop, nor should we ever stop. The Savior never stopped. He didn’t die on the cross until He knew it was over. He served until the end. He gave His life voluntarily and that is what true consecration is. We are consecrated when we go beyond our limits, when we serve beyond the natural capacity and give all of our heart.
These verses speak of charity and all the attributes of it and if you really look at it, all of those things are things you go through on your mission. And that is how you deepen your level of conversion/consecration. When you have charity you become like the Savior and you serve with your heart. Which is the most important.
When people feel loved they want to change. When they feel like you are there to help them not to teach them the Gospel, but to help them to come to Christ, then they want to change. That is when I wanted to change. I wanted to change on my mission and in life, when I learned that God really cared for me, that He was there and that He knew me.
When we treat others this way then we will see them desire to change, because that is what it is all about. Its not about us being prideful and striving to be a successful missionary to get gain for our own selves, its about loving yourself and others enough to come unto Christ and become a true disciple.
I love being here and learning all that I am. I feel my Heavenly Father all around me. I see it in those who I get to serve with and it certainly is a pleasure. I’m grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ and that we have this beautiful opportunity to serve.